In the final few months of my mechanical engineering degree with 4 projects and 4 exams to worry about, naturally I found myself writing in my journal and reflecting, thinking spiritual and big, attempting to concern myself with matters greater than coursework and tests. Of course.
And as I wrote, I found myself talking to an audience… And I wondered, why don’t I share this with more than just the NSA? And so, in a form of blissful procrastination, I spent a third of my savings to make a blog.
Right.
Well, moving on.
Here is my journal entry for today, unedited in all it’s glory. Enjoy!
Hello my Fellow Humans!
I am not quite sure why I write as if I am speaking to people. Maybe in a sense, I feel like this is my way of opening up in the world. I am not just talking for myself, I am talking for all of you. I, like all of you, have experiences, and my experience sharing has two benefits. One is for myself, doing all this writing about my thoughts, feelings, experiences and my spiritual expression, helps to clear my mind and focus. It also teaches you new things, as you and I are learning all the time. We don’t realise it, but we are. This alone is why it’s important that you surround yourself with good folk, and remove negative influences in your life, such as CNN news. Ha! I made a joke-Anyhow.
After so long, and I hope it is not too early to say, I have now got two hands with healthy looking nails. Well, healthier. My thumbs are looking great, and my left forefinger nail is evidently healing damage, but yeah, looking really good. And there’s a certain confidence I get by looking at my hands. They don’t make me feel like I’m nervous or anxious, they look like the hands of someone who’s not plaguing themselves with mindless & heedless suffering. How I did it, for those you ask? Well, I have been trying to quit for quite some time now, but honestly, I was staying with my aunt and just chose not to. I cut out a girl from my life, and with those two external differences, I found myself biting less and less… Sure that says something.
There’s two types of people in a particular sense I will explain to you. There’s the kind that get so focused on life, they work hard, play hard, and just get on with life. They become engrossed in life, as if it is everything. And it is! A person’s perspective, is the world, is their world, and we’re all entitled to our perspectives, as it makes us who we are. But they can change, if they have the will to change that when confronted with opposition in their belief. But I digress:
On the flip side, there’s those who are often wondering where they’re headed in life, wondering of direction and purpose. They admire the other type as they talk of their accomplishments, but can’t help feeling like they’re missing out on the simple bliss that being humble brings. Every now and then, we can all feel mindful, and fully live in the moment, and at these times, we will look at other people going about their lives, and often, at the top of a hill looking down at a city, we’ll see how insignificant they are, and how they should see the world from where you are, from your perspective. But how can you do that? You can talk to them, and share your experience, and some will have had similar experiences and bring up past memories. Others will glimpse at what it must feel like through imagination. And others, will simply not be able to comprehend what your words mean, and either understand they don’t understand, or more likely, create or add to preconceptions of you. (Maybe the person had originally thought you slightly mentally ill for your choice of clothes, and now they’ve affirmed it as fact. ha.)
And I feel like this, this right there, is not right. How can understanding be so universally limited, in this age of great progression? Why aren’t experiences like these, shared with everyone? Why isn’t there more value on such feelings drawn from the observation of nature, and perspectives from nature? These questions may seem silly, and you likely will answer these with because this and because that, but why is that the case? Not why, but why?! I suppose I am asking in a more philosophical manner, imaging what could be different.
And this is important. For people to spread awareness of things that could be different. Because it is only by questioning our current state of socioeconomic existence that names like Nelson Mandela, Malcolm X, Martin Luther King Jr, Joan of Arc, Leonardo Da Vinci, Muhammad (PBUH), Mother Theresa, and many, many more.
All these people, looked at the world with eyes of compassion and sadness, as they saw what many other people couldn’t through their limited perspectives; the need for change, regardless of struggle and opposition, of apparent impossibility & improbability in the face of a powerful regime. And all of them, sacrificed for their cause, for making the world a better place.
And it was only by their sacrifice, that every single one of us lives a better life today.
The power for change lies within all of us. Change is possible. Personal and social. It’s possible. And it all requires sacrifice and struggle.
And it is all worth it.
And as daunting as the words “sacrifice” and “struggle” sound, don’t fret. It may not seem appealing, as many of us reading this are living quite the privileged lifestyle with our technology and warm homes and comfort. And it’s in those conditions growth doesn’t occur. Does an animal evolve when food, sex and safety are plentiful? No, animals adapt to run faster when hunted, evolve stronger legs for bounding to safety. Your pet cat is hardly going to evolve in a beneficial manner surrounded by food and comfort.
No, all I ask for you all to do, is pause for a moment before you set step in the outside world, appreciate that people you see are living, feeling and loving people like yourself, and don’t be hesitant to go out of your way a little bit to make their lives easier. And the universe has a way of reciprocating your good will and effort. Believe me.